I finished my internship back in August and yes I’m still slacking at home. The reason why I slack is because I’m still unsure about my future (to those who are very sure about their future, congratulations), I’ve been talking few of my best friends about my insecurity towards my future. Some asked me to continue to study while some ask me to work.

Seeing people so determined at their work or studies drives me crazy, and I even came out with this ridiculous conclusion, “do not study diploma”. And yes, I never felt so true about a statement, because it left you hanging, people who doesn’t have enough money but wants to study will end up working their whole life, they might have the money after a few years of working but the desire is not as strong as before. Well, people who has the money to continue their study, Good Luck! But don’t waste your parents’ money and study hard because you guys have the chance that some people wouldn’t even have.

Watched a few movies during my slacking period and I’m glad that I found some interesting ones.


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“While you were sleeping ” was a romantic comedy of two people, one is collecting tokens at the train station and one is a worker in a furniture business, from how they met and how they communicate, my conclusion was: IT’S SO 90’s !!! Back then everything is so pure and simple and straight forward, unlike now, people are being so selfish, lack of patience and realistic.


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“Julie and Julia” was more of an autobiography but it was filmed in a very interesting way, talking from 1949 in Paris until 2002 in Queens. Meryl Streep is such an excellent actress, the way she talks and how her voices changed amazed me so much because she gave a character its own soul in every movie she did. Julie and Julia both have two similarities, they’ve got interested in cooking and man who loved them.

Guess I had made up some parts of my mind, I’m taking up French in mid November, it’s been a dream to learn French and now I finally have the chance to soak my self in some French words and their ambience.



I have been staying at home for more than two months, that made me became very lazy. My life is practically with my laptop, TV and bed. Hung out with some friends during these two months but not often. I have known to be very depressed these few weeks, maybe I don’t have many friends to talk with, and depression just hit me unexpectedly during nighttime. Not sure how to express my depression in a healthy and efficient way, so I am always full of negative thoughts, hope this can stop as soon as possible.


Anyways, I decided to learn French. I have been dreaming to live in Paris, but before stepping forward to my destination, language must be taken care of, I don’t want to live there with my broken French.


Question: Am I a loner?

I have been questioning myself as well as my college friends, Natasha a good friend of mine met me in a shopping mall and the first thing she said to me was: “You are always alone!” That wakes me up actually, let me review my life from high school, hmmm, I don’t have many friends to talk with and I always go out alone. Watch movie alone, drink coffee alone, eat dinner alone and many more, which is why I don’t get those people who is seeking gym buddies. You can just GYM alone you know, you don’t need to be accompanied always.


I have no plans to start anything, neither study plans nor work plans, well except for the language class. I guess I’d better me making plans before Chinese new year, before all my relatives giving me suggestions that they think is very useful but actually is very useless.


Left: Gucci, Right: Saint Laurent. 

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